this weight is crushing

"Now drive me far.... away.... away.... away..... FAR!!  I don't care where just FAR! away"


a scalpel or an axe
a bullet or a bomb
a pearl or a star

an entire lifetime of joy and happiness given to safety.  A dream of unconditional surrender and love interrupted by the sound of the dryer spinning towels. 

Faith is an interesting concept.  belief unwavering.  forgive forget forgo.  is there a place for analytical process in faith?  and in this a death, a rebirth and a willingness to die again.  death is the simplest of these things.  a willingness to die is different than a willingness to live.  i suppose there is a certain degree of romance associated with someone saying they would die for you, however, it lacks complexity. it omits adversity.  to roll over and surrender is not the makings of an everlasting love.  To fight, persevere and live through hardship, to brave the flame is a choice that requires absolute conviction.  a commitment to something more trying.  there is nothing enlightened about dying, nothing brave about it.  to live is to endure. love is not a sprint, it's a marathon.